I sat on the table in the examination room – legs dangling with that paper gown on – waiting to hear what I knew was true. The biggest goals I had ever dreamed were wrapped up in getting married and having children. As my doctor entered the room and did all of those things doctors do to confirm a diagnosis, my heart thrilled, “Carmen, you are pregnant.” Oh the joy of that moment. He began to discuss pregnancy and what to expect and I could hardly hear because I heard only a baby’s cry in my ears – my baby’s cry.
As the months passed, I began to ask more questions about labor and delivery. I wanted to be prepared. My mom (who had four children by the way) had instilled some fear and I wanted this experts opinion. I asked,” How bad is this going to hurt?” and Dr. H. responded, “It will be pretty uncomfortable. Like a really bad cramp.” When our girl’s birth day arrived, I realized that a man was describing something that he would never experience.
Experience – that’s what makes our story, our gift. We can never really help someone move forward farther than we have already been.
God has trusted each of us with a journey – a unique journey. Mine has been fun and thrilling and sad and painful. All of those emotions and events make Carmen who she is today.
I wish that stinking stuff never happened to me. And, I wish it never happened to you. Because it has, we are now Jesus with skin on for others who are walking our path. I have needed some of those folks in my life. The question we need to ask ourselves is…do we run from the pain and hurt or do we own it, grieve over it, allow healing to come and then, throw the doors open of our hearts to carry someone else whose knees just got buckled with it?
Lord help us. We can’t do life without You and Your other kids. Amen
“All praise to the God and Father of our Master, Jesus the Messiah! Father of all mercy! God of all healing counsel! He comes alongside us when we go through hard times, and before you know it, he brings us alongside someone else who is going through hard times so that we can be there for that person just as God was there for us. We have plenty of hard times that come from following the Messiah, but no more so than the good times of his healing comfort—we get a full measure of that, too.” 2 Corinthians 1:3-5, MSG