Have you forgiven God? As Lary and I talked one morning about life and tough times in our past, I almost said but caught myself, “I forgive Him”. The thought grabbed me. I bit my tongue and chastised myself for almost going there. I began to think…
I began to think maybe I need to go there. And, maybe you do too. Can we accept that God is big enough, secure enough, loving enough to have that conversation? Because we have to believe He can take it, even welcome it, or we will continue to hide hurt that only He can heal.
As my mind drifted, I began to think about Jesus’ cousin John the Baptist. Portions of a verse came to mind, “…God blesses those who do not turn away because of me.” (Or who are not offended by me.) Luke 7:23 NLT
Why in the world would someone turn away from Jesus or be offended by Him? Well, I can think of a reason pretty quick.
He is all powerful, all knowing, ever present and stinking stuff still happens. In John’s situation he was imprisoned unjustly and maybe he thought the Messiah he was looking for would have a little political clout as he set up a kingdom. Maybe take control of the situation John was enduring for the sake of the gospel. For you and I…
Our loved ones still die
Our kids still get on the wrong track
Cancer still attacks our bodies
The love of our life still walks out
Bankruptcy still happens
Our hearts get broken, promises get broken…Do you see yourself in there?
Am I the only one that has just wanted to growl at times and say, “Hey Lord, helloooooo! I’m mad at You!? You have let me down. Where were you when…? You could have stopped… You could have healed…saved…intervened…” Well, let’s say it. Mercy, He’s probably been waiting on us to say it. David filled the book of Psalms with those kind of conversations.
He knows we have those feelings. Jesus, with compassion and understanding, realized we might just want to walk away from Him because of the tragedies and challenges we face.
Oh dear friend, I have been spitting mad at God before. I have cried and fussed and have been like M’lynn in Steel Magnolias and thought, “I just want to hit something”.
So what do we hit? Our knees.
Where else can we go? God hates the way this thing turned out too. Bad things don’t come from Him. When He gave us free will, He knew all sort of craziness was on the horizon. Thankfully He made a way for our salvation along with a promise that this life was not all there was. We have a hope for the future.
I’ve told you all this so that trusting me, you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I’ve conquered the world.” John 16:33 (MSG)
Some things in this world are just not good. No matter how you spin them, they land the same way, upside down. Paul wrote in his letter to the churches in Rome, “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28 ESV) Notice he didn’t say everything was good. He said God takes all the bad, the good, the happy, the sad, the pain, the brokenness and like a master chef works them together into something good. Sometimes we see good quickly and other times, the good may only become apparent much later, if at all, on this side of heaven. We can be assured that God never allows bad without some kind of eternal significance.
Are you willing to have that talk with God? Will you open your heart to Him? Tell Him you’re mad and then let Him tell you He understands. He hates sin and pain more that we do. This was never His perfect plan.
Talk to Him. He can handle it. I promise.