O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge.
Psalm 62:8 (NLT)
I rarely pour my heart out to anyone. I share many things with my husband or best girlfriend but there are always places in my soul I leave untouched – veiled.
Maybe those places seem too dark or maybe they are just too painful.
What do we do with the little sacred boxes within us that contain our hidden worries, hurts, disappointments and fears? Not only those things but our unrealized dreams that we can’t bring ourselves to vocalize? What if we say those dreams out loud and…what if they never become reality?
Most often we carry them with us as a weight on our souls. We smile, go to our workplace, take care of our families and attend our church while ferociously guarding those secret places – even from our own view.
If you are like me, you may have multiple boxes that you are trying hard to keep the lid on. You know those little “nesting” boxes? I have some cares that I have placed into the smallest box. I often try to deal with what I think is the main issue (the big box) but the lid seems to be stuck on that little box. Because, what’s in the little box is really what I’m running from.
For me, the problem lies in trust. Do I trust God? Will I allow Him access to what I have concealed? He has proven Himself to me over and over yet I have buried some things so deeply, I am afraid to uncover them. I don’t question His love for me but I know that when that lid opens, He and I will have work to do. Hard work. The kind that sometimes seems worse before its better. I know because we have opened boxes before and it wasn’t a party.
In the verse above David pleads with us to pour our hearts out to God. He reminds us that God can be trusted for He is our safe haven.
I’ve been working on prying some lids off boxes. I’m working my way down. God lifts the corner but when I don’t think I’m ready, I push that corner right back down. In His patience, He waits. He waits because He knows me and He wants me to be well and whole. He knows that’s I want too.
What do you have all neatly wrapped and hidden? What do you need God’s light to shine on so you can leave it behind? When you are ready, God is. He’s waiting for us to invite Him to the unveiling. Transparency with God might not be a party but it can be a celebration.
This first appeared as a guest post for Kristi Woods’ Bearing Branch.